Saturday, October 01, 2005 @ 1:56 pm
Very uneasy.
Dunno y but as days pass by, I'm getting more uneasy. Maybe it's due my conscience but I do hope tat things will turn out fine if not i dunno how to face the world. I can act like I didn't care but I can feel the pain. The pain of losing everything I care 4, tat I want to cherish so much. The greatest thing abt being a human is havin emotions but with these emotions comes along pain. Sometimes I wish I wasn't human so I couldn't feel pain. I'll get my answer soon but will it be wat I hope 4?
These few days were busy 4 me as I went back to sch everyday for my FYP. Though tis project is wat I wanted but it's really hectic as all the reagents n agar tat we need we haf to prepare ourselves. N the agar we used is damn expensive, E. coli 1 cost $40 plus while the Salmonella cost $800 plus. Never tot it would cost so much, wonder how much r we gonna used? The first trial we had tink not successful cos there's not much colonies isolated. Probably bcos we used eggs which isn't very "dirty". I also found out tat I'm cursing the stomacher. Everytime I got near or used it, the bag tat contain the food n the diluent started leaking. But when Ya Ching n Malvina used it, it was fine. My whole holiday will be spent on FYP. Hai i want my holiday~.
Yesterday went out after readin our results. Not very gd cos the results dun make sense, probably due to contamination. Went to a bakery at holland village wif Ya Ching n Malvina. The bread quite expensive but not bad, quite nice. But haf to eat it soon cos the cinnamon roll i bought i ate it a few hours later n the sugar melted. After tat went to orchard wif Ya Ching but i stopped at somerset. Since it was still early b4 Siew Chen reach i went to HMV to listen to music. Ayumi's heaven single is out. Nice, it's the soundtrack of Shinobi, a movie abt ninjas. I saw the mtv once on ch51 mtv chinese. Still a bit unhappy when i saw the Do As Infinity (D.A.I) cd Do the Best. Cos i bought the cd a long time ago n it did not include the vcd or dvd. Sad tat they got separated, their music is something like F.I.R. I always like the song new world, it make me feel better whenever I'm upset.
Ard 1 I met Siew Chen at orchard mrt. Haf our lunch at mac at shaw. Still tink fastfood is ex outside of sch. Went to far east plaza to window shop. My nose got really sensitive n i started sneezing. Saw some nice clothes tat I can buy when i haf the $. Bought a pair of earrings for $2.90, which is quite cheap. A bit crazy abt skirt with lace at the end cos i saw a girl wore it on tv n it look damn nice. It's more gothic-looking than girly so maybe tat's y i like it. But when i tried on 1 of the similar-looking skirt, i tink i look weird. Maybe i'm jus not suitable to wear skirt or not used to it.
Went to Heeren after tat. Siew Chen bought a dark purple string, those tat can wear ard the neck. Saw another nice earring tat was selling 4 $3.90, really like it plus it's cheap so i bought it. Met Ya Ching when we're goin down to the fountain. Was a bit tired so we rest there. Spotted a nice bag at U.R.S which was supposed to be shoe shop. It costs abt $16.90, quite reasonable 4 the size. Considering to buy so i haf to save some $. We then go to the beads shop beside marche. Wish i can make my own jewellery n maybe save some $. The last place we went to was cineleisure. There wasn't much there n we left pretty soon after tat.
I tink i haf to learn $ management. Cos till now i still can't achieve the target of saving $10 per wk. I recorded all my spendings excluding transport n at the end of month i haf only $20 plus remaining. I need a new plan to save $. Any ideas?
