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Thursday, August 25, 2005 @ 10:20 pm
Am i the black sheep?.
Today had med micro practical test. Tink i didn't do very well. Plus time was very rush especially when doin gram stain. In the end i did not wash properly n plate B become gram-pos rods. Not happy wif myself today as a result. Tml haf no practical so ending at 12. Was tinking of goin out but maybe it was too rush, nobody is free tml. I wan a break first before studying 4 Fraser's tests. Otherwise i haf to wait like 2 weeks later to relax. I haven told my parents yet. Abt studying overseas. Wimp i noe. But i jus dunno how to say it. Especially these past few days my parents were like toking abt some insurance thingy n if i'm goin to be covered by insurance then i haf to pay $. My mum didn't wan the insurance cos i'm still studying but my dad say i can pay 4 it when i start work. I almost blurt out saying what if i wan to continue to study after i graduate? But i didn't. The tot of me goin overseas to study seems so far away n impossible to reach. I noe it's gonna cost a lot, my parents r already complaining abt my bro's SIM sch fees so i tink they're gonna scream at me if i ask them abt it. I still wan to study first before working, at least get a degree or something. I wonder when will i finally ask them. Maybe i shouldn't study science. I wasn't studying science stream in secondary sch. The reason i study science was it isn't as boring as accounts. But did i make the right choice? I'm the only 1 in my family to study science. All of them go into business. Tis make me the odd one out. Sometimes i feel like the black sheep of the family. I was told i was unexpected which many can guess, seeing the age gap between me n my siblings. Maybe bcos of the age gap, me n my siblings dun haf so much to talk abt. They worry abt work while i worry abt my studies. The connection tat we haf isn't as strong as wat i c in some of friends n their siblings. My problems r usually share wif friends rather than my siblings. Seems like i'm an only child at times instead of the youngest. Shaman King is gonna end soon. Sad tat it is ending, plus the anime is slightly different frm the manga so i'm gonna haf to read the manga soon. Dunno y but inuyasha is not on, instead it's an anime abt samurai called peacemaker. The first episode was ok, quite violent at times. Maybe will watch 4 a few more times before reviewing it.
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Friday, August 19, 2005 @ 9:52 pm
Change: can u embrace it?.
Finally weekend! Fave time of the wk where i dun haf to go sch. ^_^ But today kenna suan by Fraser 4 the datasheets 4 our practicals. Me n Ya Ching we're laughing quite loud so i tink the whole class noe whose mistakes belong to us. I even stick the electrophoresis diagram wrongly n Fraser said it's was nicely done but it's upside down. I wanted to crawl into a hole when he said tat. Sorry Mal n Ya Ching 4 messing up the datasheet. Hey but at least i didn't say Helen was pregnant wif the Hb Portland thing. Haf to redo a few of the datasheets as our marks r 'incredible'. Watch Superstar yesterday. Not happy wif the result. Really tot Junyang would win but it seems like Kelvin had a lot of supporters probably made up of aunties. I'm not making tis up cos even my own aunt vote 4 him so guess he's an auntie-killer. But the final i hope Kelly would win. Not bcos she's frm sp but i would more likely to buy her cd then Kelvin's. Also didn't like wat sp was doin. On the way to sch can c a lot of posters asking ppl to vote 4 Kelly. I tink it's too overboard. Wat is sp trying to do? Promote itself as a superstar breeding ground? Was looking forward to the final of Superstar but without Junyang, it doesn't seem as interesting anymore. Had been crying 4 the past few days. No, i'm not goin thru a bad patch but it happens whenever i read tis particular fanfiction of Shaman King. In case u haf no idea, fanfiction is wat fans write using characters frm anime, games, movies, tv shows, books etc. It's like using their imagination to write a story but based on characters they like. The writers can be anybody as long as u can write. I added the fanfiction link quite a while ago, it has a lot of fanfiction with different categories. Some of the stories r crap, totally not worth reading but some like the one i'm reading now r really good. Anyway back to y i'm crying, it's bcos the story is really beautiful wif a sad ending. Hey even i who dun like to cry is moved to tears (I'm sappy i noe, crying over a story but i can't help it). The story has depth, it doesn't alter the original characters frm the anime n it seems like it was written by the original author. Frm the number of reviews it got, guess a lot of other readers also tink tat the story is great. N frm the story i read, i tink abt some things. Those ppl tat we appreciate n loved, do we love them 4 them or jus wat we noe of them originally? A bit confusing but let say u first noe tis person n u liked the way he/she is. But when tis person changes, does the way u feel for tat person change? In changes i mean character-wise, like becoming more outspoken, more stubborn, less easy-going tat sort of thing. I dun mean like the person suddenly become a serial killer or wat. So if the person change, things between u two change? Or is it tat u can only accept wat u like/noe of the person originally? If tis question is ask on me, i dunno. I guess it depends on wat the person has change to. But the feeling tat i had originally 4 tat person would still be there, no matter how little. Tis brings me to another topic, Brad Pitt n Jennifer Aniston. When they were married, i tot they would last forever. But i guess i was wrong. I remember reading frm some place tat they split up bcos they feel tat both of them had changed n like cannot stay together. So is it true tat once a person change the relationship also change? To ask someone to remain the same is impossible. If we weren't alive, tis would be possible. Tink abt it, haf u ever give up on someone jus bcos he/she changed n was no longer wat u used to noe? Accepting the person as a whole may be hard to do but dun give up on a person jus bcos he/she change. Anyway a bit of summary of the fanfiction i read: The guy A n the girl B were fiancees but they had not really declared their feeling 4 each other. A's dream was to become Shaman King, live an easy life n run an inn wif B. He did become Shaman King n tot he was goin to live his dream. But B left him one day with only a note saying goodbye. Tat left him devastated n he could only get back together after 2 years. Meanwhile he got to noe girl C n they start going out together. When it seem like things r goin well, B return after 4 years. Tis shocked A n he is confused abt wat to do. C only noe abt their A n B relationship when B came back, so C was not happy. A told C he loved her but had doubts later. Meanwhile A n B avoided each other but end up at the same place. C again was unhappy n ask wat B wants. B then say she wants A back, things to haf never changed. So B n C faced off to c whose better n B won. But A told the two of them tat he chose C. B then choose to stay away n got into a car accident. A bit drama but it's really nice. If u wan to noe the ending u got to read the whole story n haf some idea abt Shaman King to really appreciate it. All i can say is tis story is moving, it doesn't stop at the car accident, it's worth a look.
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Sunday, August 14, 2005 @ 11:45 am
Am i missing something?.
Doesn't seem like a gd day 4 me cos tis damn com hang jus when i finally get down to do some work. Tink i'm goin smash tis com sooner or later if it hangs on me again. Wat's worse is having some wasp buzzing ard when i try to get tis com workin. So now i'm shut in my room blogging n i tink my mum would wonder wat i'm doin inside. So much work to do, OC speech, Fraser's practicals n histo presentation. I tink i'm too stressed cos now i'm missing 1 month of 'something tat's supposed to come'. Grr... hoped i dun haf to c a doc again for the same problem. Yesterday went to meet Siew Chen at tampines mrt. Wanted to buy the frame for my jigsaw puzzle cos it's takin up space. Unfortunately, the pasar malam ended which means we wasted our trip. The other place tat haf pasar malam was at jurong east. So we sat the mrt to boon lay first to haf our lunch. Pretty long journey, i almost fell asleep. Seems weird tat there's so many ppl at jurong point cos i tot most ppl would go to town. Had lunch at mos burger. Was feeling really full so we walked ard jurong point. One of the shops sells quite cheap clothes, quite nice. But jurong point is so far, i guess i wouldn't be goin there so often. Saw tat gift land also sell the frame for jigsaw puzzle but at $14.90. A bit more ex than pasar malam's n we left as i consider whether to buy or not. Finally decide i wan to save $ so we went to jurong east. Lucky the pasar malam was still there. Mistook the price 4 the frame as there r 2 types of frame n the frame i wan to buy cost $8. Also bought some glue which in total cost $10.80. Siew Chen decided to buy the frame after she finished the puzzle. After tat went straight home cos i dun wan to lug the frame ard. Wanted to started straight away after i went home but the frame doesn't provide a board so i haf to stick the puzzle on the board i bought frm popular n then cut to suit the frame b4 i can hang on the wall. So far, i only start on a small portion of it. Tink the guy who sold me the frame n glue is lying. He said tat 4 a 1000 jigsaw puzzle it will need 2 bottles of glue but so far i haf not use tat much glue. Seems like fate has descend on my siblings n not me. A while back my bro brought back his girlfriend to meet our parents. She's not bad-looking, but i didn't talk much to her. Tink my parents haf no complains abt her. Guess it'll progress into something more now tat she had met the parents. My second sis is abt get the key for her HDB flat. My oldest sis living happily wif my bro-in-law in woodlands, missing only the chinese wedding banquet yet to be held. Things r goin well 4 them n it makes me wonder wat's goin to happen to me? If i goin to be single all my life guess i'll stay wif my parents. But i goin to be alone sooner or later n tinking abt tat makes me... i dunno sad? Dunno if it's the rite word but if i can predict my life i guess either i would be single or having a late marriage. Y? Cos i tink i'm hard to understand n i like my freedom. Some couples haf to like see each other or talk on the phone everyday n i dun tink i like tat. How can some1 haf so much to talk abt? If it's talking abt wat they go thru everyday, isn't it boring to hear it everyday? Sorry if i offend anybody but i've never been thru tis n tis is wat i tink it's like. Maybe because i'm not like tat, tat's y i will still be alone.
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Friday, August 05, 2005 @ 4:38 pm
I rather fall and be scarred.
Still not very satisfied wif my 1 wk break. Maybe cos i haven rest for such a long time n can't really rest till maybe after graduate. Dunno y sometimes i feel like i'm more of a 91 year old ah ma then a 19 year old teenager. Noe abt the 1000 puzzle i was talkin abt in the previous entry? Well i finished it! Amazing ah? I didn't tink i would complete it tat quickly n was expecting to finish in 2 months. Guess i underestimate myself. ^_^ Rite now tinking of framing it n hang on my wall. Though bought from pasar malam, the quality was ok. Was planning to start on my second puzzle the FFX-2 one but my lazy bro ask me to help him complete his 1000 puzzle. Hai since i'm such a nice sister, i'll finish his before doin mine. ^_^ Tml goin to a seminar of Australian universities held at orchard hotel ballroom. Planning to noe more abt wat course they offering, the cost of living etc. Hopefully can target a few universites n tat the sch fees wouldn't be too ex. Still haven tell my parents abt the plans i haf after i graduate. Shld be doin it soon after goin to tml seminar. But i kinda imagine my parents reaction. They would probably tink i wouldn't be able to survive on my own overseas. I dun say i disagree wif them cos in some ways, i'm kinda of pampered. But i also tink it's because i'm the youngest tat's y i'm pampered. If i had a little sis or bro, perhaps i will be more independent. I quite protected as in some things i can't do cos my parents c it as something out of my league. I noe they r concerned abt me but i rather to haf experienced new things. Not tat i'm very keen to but it's jus a means of survival. To be able adapt to changes, u jus haf to experience new things. I'm more angry wif myself for not doin something than i making a mistake. Making a mistake at least i noe wat when wrong. For me not to be able to start n not knowing wat is right or wrong is something i will harp on in my life. N i dun like help unless i can't handle n i ask for it. Tis stubborness of mine is probably the only trait i share as those born in the year of ox.
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Monday, August 01, 2005 @ 9:33 pm
Wat's wrong wif msn?.
Not too happy wif msn cos jus now my msn hang 4 like over 10 times whenever i talk to Hui Min. Either her msn is cursing mine or there's something seriously wrong wif mine. Dun seem to haf much problem when i was talking to Malvina? Kns had to login so many times. Hope msn can fix up soon. Had started wif my puzzle i bought wif Siew Chen at tampines pasar malam on last wed. Began wif the FFVIII one, u noe the i'll be there i promise tat pic? Manage to get the border and fill up abt 1/5 of the puzzle. Tink it's gonna take abt 2 months 4 me to finish the 1000 jigsaw puzzle. Haf to buy a board or something to place beneath otherwise i can't continue. My other puzzle, FFX-2, the one wif Yuna n Lene(correct spelling?) standing back to back is still untouched. Planning to hang them on my wall once i finished. Saw Fullmetal Alchemist dvd n vcd on sale. Excited cos tis would mean tat the anime would be showing on tv real soon. Meaning i would haf new anime to watch. ^_^ Really like the posters in one of the vcd shops, Laser something(dun remember the exact name). They hang those really nice posters on anime yet they dun seem to sell them. I would buy them if they r selling. Start of a new term, to me it's jus the usual, nothing interesting. Dunno y but Fraser's lesson is becoming more of a bore to me. Almost fell asleep when he was briefing on the practical. It was so long, abt an hour before we get to look at slides. Tink i haf to find way to stay awake otherwise i wouldn't be surviving long in his lesson.
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